Canceled: Odyssey of the Martyr

Can you cancel somebody who has already canceled themselves? Can you get any more problematic than admitting how problematic you are versus trying to prove that you're not? It's kind of like saying something racist and then saying you're not a racist and then spending a lot of energy defending yourself only to make it worse.

Wouldn't it have been so much easier to just admit that you fucked up and what does accountability or repair look like from there? Because from what I'm seeing on this side, I don't even have any desire to be a part of a community that claims accountability or transformative justice, especially if I already felt like I was walking on eggshells going in there to begin with.

Welcome to today's solo podcast episode with me, your host, June a.k.a. Jumakae. And there is a lot that I have been feeling in my womb space about cancelling culture and just so many things that have been coming to the surface. And it feels so really good to be in a place where I can breathe, feel and observe what's coming up for me without immediately reacting to it. Because before I would be in the comments and I would make this a center of my focus because at that time I didn't know what I was creating for myself yet. So a lot of my energy was being exerted towards fixing other people's problems or getting into it, versus taking a moment to pause and reflect on my own and how is it that I am contributing to the alternative I want to see in the world, in the communities that I shared space with and most importantly for my future self and my future Children.

So what is on the opposite side of being the victim, villain, and the victor? So there's the creative, challenger and the coach. What does that mean? Victims. Hello! Make great creatives. The creatives are the ones who can educate, who can inspire, who can dream of what this alternative can look like and create spaces for us to feel even more of that in our body. So those who are the villains and I know that everybody is listening is probably denying the villain within them. Look, if you've ever blamed somebody for something, then you would probably be labeled as the villain. So the villains medicine gets to be as the challenger. The victor's medicine can be as the coach, is the one who cheers you on. Is the one who asked, okay, what is the kind of world you want to create? What is the kind of life you want to live? Great. How are you going to do that? How are you going to do that? And the Challenger is like, all right, I'm going to push you to do the very things that is you.

We know that we're going to be stretched beyond our comfort zones and we acknowledge that we're going to mess up in the process of it. But at least we have this team that is by our side. That's saying it's all good. All right, let's just continue improving and we're all going to mess up and stumble together. But guess what? We get to witness each other's flaws and we get to grow alongside one another versus feeling like we need to hold so many of these stories and these burdens to ourselves.

So enter the coach. I'm a mixture of all three. We’re a mixture of all three. The creative, the challenger, and the coach. But you can only discover these new parts of yourselves when you release the victim, the villain and the victor.

Oh, so to close out today's solo podcast episode, I thought it would only be appropriate for me to share that poem that unfolded into so much of the creator that I get to reclaim today and it's called, “Communities that I'm a Part of.” 

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